Reclaiming

Like there was something in my eyes, or they just knew that was I was a drag queen everyday of my life. I didn’t want to “mess up my kid” and my husband found it to be “disturbing” Shame was everywhere I looked except when I stood beside a Drag Queen, then I felt open and free. Like magic and gay men often knew the way there for me. I followed them and I am so glad I followed my heart.

NIN Izzy Ahee

So when I did this song I took all that intimidation and boundary pushing and threw it right into the character. I embody that part of me and release it among the crowd in a way the ended up making them all FUCKING HORNY! Ha ha! Good stuff and tons of fun.

“Comfort Zone”

As a teenager all of my friends constantly were dressing me, in order to “bring out my feminine side” I hoped they could inspire that “femme” side to come out because I was starting to get worried about the sexual feelings I was having for the girls putting on my make up.

Drag!! Izzy Ahee Debut Performance!

So I had weeks to prepare for my first show as Izzy Ahee. I chose George Michael as my opening show because it showed who I was in a way. Fabulous sexy man…

Seriously!?

Each time I analyze social gender I come to the obvious question every single time… “Why does it matter?” There is no need for gender in our social world, really there just isn’t. It is just another form of discrimination, like race and orientation.

Trans Sisters

Come out sister and embrace the babies, they NEED YOU!

Don’t let the transition lead you back into the closet!!

So for my cis sisters, lets support them, they need us. We stand stronger in large numbers and we certainly have information to help them and trans sisters bring messages for us.

All feminists, regardless of your gender need to share hands. We need to stand up and say , “Fuck Gender, who needs it!”

Transman

Anyway as far as extreme on either side of the gender spectrum makes me feel constricted, tied up, or even fake in some ways. Often if someone is too much of one side I find that I feel that their fake, maybe I am judgmental, but I don’t trust everything they do for that reason. For me, I just can’t stay on either side to heavily I get wiggly and I can’t sit still. I always break the gender rules – yah I am a butch gardener farmer type, yah I plant little flowerly fairy gardens!! See I break them all the time, I just keep stretching out and crossing boundaries.

Gender Definition

My gender is just that, its a gender, not binary but instead more like a range. I just don’t get the binary, its confusing to me.

The Binary

So for the past 6 months I was thinking I might be happier if I transitioned to a “man” using either natural methods or injecting Testosterone. I kept hesitating though… it seems to me that hesitation is a warning sign… plus I am old enough to know that the grass isn’t greener on the other…

Gender and Genitalia

I have discovered that most people tie their genitalia to their gender. Buck Angel has talked about this in his intellectual talks about transgender issues. This is interesting in that even transpeople often still have this identity.

Closeted?!

If a 3rd and 4th or even 5th gender were introduced in our society I would be interested to find out how many people would still transition. I have found the book “Gender Outlaw- On Men, Women, and The Rest of Us” by Kate Bornstein to be right on mark about gender and the rest of it.