I want to explore the assumed empowerment of men. I want to strive for balance of male & female in myself. I want to learn as much as I can and put together a few performances. I want to practice my crowd manipulation as a man. Where can this take me?
Category: Gender
NIN Izzy Ahee
So when I did this song I took all that intimidation and boundary pushing and threw it right into the character. I embody that part of me and release it among the crowd in a way the ended up making them all FUCKING HORNY! Ha ha! Good stuff and tons of fun.
“Comfort Zone”
As a teenager all of my friends constantly were dressing me, in order to “bring out my feminine side” I hoped they could inspire that “femme” side to come out because I was starting to get worried about the sexual feelings I was having for the girls putting on my make up.
Drag!! Izzy Ahee Debut Performance!
So I had weeks to prepare for my first show as Izzy Ahee. I chose George Michael as my opening show because it showed who I was in a way. Fabulous sexy man…
Drag King!
Of course a lot has happened since then. I have allowed myself to fully explore what I like instead of what my significant other likes. Although I think its a great way to expand your horizons, don’t get lost in your SO, simple advice. He was always uncomfortable with me wearing his clothes but I liked it, and was actually more closeted about it than him. Also my call to drag has been a long time fascination. I love it over the top, the more the better. I spent so much time with queens at the queer bars during my closet years they thought I was part of the costuming team or something.
Seriously!?
Each time I analyze social gender I come to the obvious question every single time… “Why does it matter?” There is no need for gender in our social world, really there just isn’t. It is just another form of discrimination, like race and orientation.
Trans Sisters
Come out sister and embrace the babies, they NEED YOU!
Don’t let the transition lead you back into the closet!!
So for my cis sisters, lets support them, they need us. We stand stronger in large numbers and we certainly have information to help them and trans sisters bring messages for us.
All feminists, regardless of your gender need to share hands. We need to stand up and say , “Fuck Gender, who needs it!”
Transman
Anyway as far as extreme on either side of the gender spectrum makes me feel constricted, tied up, or even fake in some ways. Often if someone is too much of one side I find that I feel that their fake, maybe I am judgmental, but I don’t trust everything they do for that reason. For me, I just can’t stay on either side to heavily I get wiggly and I can’t sit still. I always break the gender rules – yah I am a butch gardener farmer type, yah I plant little flowerly fairy gardens!! See I break them all the time, I just keep stretching out and crossing boundaries.
Gender Variance
This lead me to the free expression of my feminine as I see it. I am a woman, I have a vagina that has given birth to my now 20yo son. Biologically speaking, I am a woman and have shared a body with another living being, I have felt a life spring from within me and venture out into our world.
Gender Definition
My gender is just that, its a gender, not binary but instead more like a range. I just don’t get the binary, its confusing to me.
The Binary
So for the past 6 months I was thinking I might be happier if I transitioned to a “man” using either natural methods or injecting Testosterone. I kept hesitating though… it seems to me that hesitation is a warning sign… plus I am old enough to know that the grass isn’t greener on the other…
Gender and Genitalia
I have discovered that most people tie their genitalia to their gender. Buck Angel has talked about this in his intellectual talks about transgender issues. This is interesting in that even transpeople often still have this identity.
Izzy Ahee 